Healing and Growing with Uranus and Chiron

Healing through the Uranus Oppostion and the Chiron Wound

I am still the middle-school aged little girl sitting on the living room floor taping boxes up to send the “Rosie O”Donnell” show. The only difference now is I am a middle aged woman sitting on my bed typing this letter. Or Instagram posts all day. I still feel that hope that this is going to be the answer to all those mythological ideas that I am not good enough, my family does not measure up. Talk about a Chiron wound. My mom was working to keep the roof out of our heads, the food in our pantry- coming from the fear of her empty cupboards as a child growing up in Hollywood, NYC, Las Vegas. She has learned to make the stories epic, but in her heart she knows she was a scared child just trying to bury her fear into a story book. 

Now, as a grown woman who has battled her way through life one-step at a time she has learned she loves her life. She and her husband have steadily worked to build an amazing home. There was a recent scare of her husband’s job wanting to move them and she realized that, there is not way that she wants to leave the home they have built. He has had a steady job that has promoted him that keeps the basics of life capable. She went back to school to become a teacher after being a stay-at- home mom and a part time realtor. This has all paid off in that their children are know going off to college themselves. One to become a chemical engineer/quantum engineer. The other is going to go off to college to become a theatre/entertainment engineer. So, in the end all the hard work has paid off to see them become what they dream of. Just, don’t look behind the curtain and see the parents trying to foot this bill, all so they can follow their dreams. Also, don’t look at the new laws passed that don’t help. 

So, here I am. That middle-school child again. But now  I have a masters degree in teaching. This is not going to pay for two growing people in college, so I dive back into astrology. Yup, that is what she was doing back in middle-school. Her mom/ her had a dream of putting astrology on the map. They were promoting a soft-ware. The developer was supposed to do a PR tour around America, which he never did. We tried to go to trade-shows to sell them but, yes, even in the spiritual community of the 90’s they were backstapping lemurs. It is an insane proposition to find me back in this field. Spirituality is fine, just don’t look behind the curtain, it can be just as bad as high religion.

 I read the charts on that soft-ware non-stop, doing everyone’s charts and even tarot cards. I remember having a sleep over once where my mom read out tarot cards, it felt so taboo. My mom was a California girl and we were living in the outskirts of Buffalo, NY. This was not a normal weekend thing. Having a mom that was into astrology, not just newspaper horoscopes but really into diving deep into the chart was not heard of, definitely not talked about. 

I read Sun Sign astrology books, knowing there was more to it, I always read my top three. It’s crazy seeing astrology coming out of the dark, it might not be main-stream but it’s definitely not the same secret thing people hide in the back of their closets, well not as much as they used to. When I decided to dive back into astrology my mom gave me the software again, and all of her books. They have been fun to look at again. She reminded me of how hard it was to get her hands on some of those books. Today, I just click a button on thriftbooks and get them within the week.

I want to say things are so different now, but I can’t. I can say more people are enthused by astrology, but there are just too many people trying to be inauthentic and backstabbing. Just at a higher number because there are more people in the field trying to make money, or telling others that you should not make money. Really, how do we live and thrive in the world without money? I have two kids to put through college, that education is not cheap. Neither is the food that I need to eat, nor the roof over our heads. Even more than that, all the life knowledge I hold, and the astrology knowledge I have to share should be worth something, I paid and sweated for all of that life skill that I want to pass on. My kids get it for free and don’t want it, but that does not mean it is free to give away – since it ends up being my time with my family I am selling. Yet, I am making money for them. Twisted circle of life. For me, I was happy living in a van, working in a bar. Family does not as easily accept that life. As in having children that need their own space.

This mercury retrograde, I feel like I am going back over my Chiron. Really looking at it, and then implementing the pain of the wound to grow a business to support my family in ways I can not even currently imagine. Astrology working itself out in life. 

How does this idea even mirror this time even more? Well, in astrocartography there are people trying to take the word and make it only for them. Yes, that is crazy. It is a subset of astrology, how can one make it theirs only. Trademark it! Crazy! Not my idea, and even if it was its not an ethical one. Therefore even if it was my idea I would not go forward with it. I want everyone with ethical practices to move forward with their businesses. That is probably why I studied with Helena Woods and Meredith Froemke. I fell in love with astrology because of them. One goes so deep into astrology that my scorpio moon is emotionally lit up. While the other takes it to the world travel which feeds my 9th house stellium without me even leaving my bed. What could be better for a 4th house Taurus. These two lit me up, probably why I ended up taking both their astrology classes, and working to become certified in both astrology classes to build my businesses on their knowledge. 

I have a business background, but definitely not for the modern age. I have an astrology background, but definitely not in the modern age. So, now I am working on both. All, to move forward during my Uranus opposition,otherwise known to most people as the mid-life crisis. Yet, it is in our astrology, so it is planned. It is not a crisis, it is a moment to wake-up and look at your life. It may feel unsteady because it may take you in new directions that no one around you though you would take, but that is not a crisis that is you becoming more you, which in my mind is one of the main goals of life. You, becoming you, not anyone else. Not someone else’s idea of you. No one can decide that but you. Others may hate your for it, but that is ok. Others will love you for it, and does’nt that feel fantastic. Either way, technically they are suppose to be doing the same thing. Some people are able to do this and stay connected and marriage and grow together. Others cannot, either way that is perfectly acceptable. 

My scorpio moon is screaming, what happens if you just told someone to do something evil.  I did not say that. That is not becoming more you, that is becoming something else completely. Really not my thing. I want you to find your 5th house of JOY and celebrate it, whatever it is, find it and go. Book a reading with me to really dig into the 5th house of JOY. It is so beautiful. 

I, in my year of my Uranus opposition, am so excited to move into my next step. There is actually a chemical, hormonal aspect for women in this as well. When we went into puberty we started to give up our oneness to become a collective. This was important in a way to raise a family and be able to give selflessly. Yes, I could dig that apart on so many levels. But, please go observe a middle school and see how the girls somehow start giving up even knowing what they want for lunch without group thought, and just a couple days before that they were just fine thinking for themselves. It really is amazing to watch. Yes, there are always the outliers but for the most part it becomes group think. Then, amazingly enough women start to go through perimenopause and they come out of this fog, and they revert, gain back, see themselves again. That is also part of the Uranus opposition. It is amazing how astrology mirrors life. 

This is also the reason that I am probably also needing to heal the inner child in order to move forward. I am remembering her more often, and want to take care of her, tell her everything does turn out amazing. Some insane twists and turns but nothing we don’t learn from, move forward from and grow in order to become who we are meant to be, and keep going on the journey because we are not done. We also have some really great people around us to help on that journey. 

I think for many of us, these moments are needed. Slow us down, realize we do got this, and we have come a long way. P.S. so did your mom. We were all just doing the best we could and we did make it through with joy and lots of love. 

In the end that is what I want to pass on to my kids. The joy in life, the going after your dreams and not holding back. We only get to do that once in this body. Looking at my kids charts I am sure they have been in many lives together. I know my dad and I were. Yet, I still like to push things in this life, in this body. Maybe not everyday, we need rest. Trust me, I love a good vacation to just sit relax and read a book, letting my Taurus bask in the sun in a field of green grass. We don’t need to smash things apart everyday. Slow and steady does win the race after all.

For those who have made it to this point I hope that you can grab the reins of life and give it your best shot as well. It may seem like a losing prospect some days when all is going off the rails. The computer app is not behaving they way you want it to, and the noise around you is unbearable. Realize you can slow down, pretend your are in the slow frame of a movie, breathe slow and deep and just put one foot in front of the other. No one is asking you to take the giant leap off the building, at least not everyday. Unless that is your job and your Mars is revving loud. Then hell, go for it, just be safe as this mother would tell her children. 

I am going to be helping people at a deeper level this year, I want to really work with people for more than one hour readings, so if this is you contact me and see if we are a good fit. I can’t wait to hear from you.