AM I a YouTube Spiritualist?

This thought came into my head recently. No, I have not looked it up to find out if it’s a thing. Sort of like the televangelist, but was there a name for the viewers? Here is a look at part of the path of how I dove back into astrology. A few years ago life hit one of those WTF moments. Otherwise known as my Sun progressing from Scorpio into Sagittarius and wanting to give me its last big lesson, and it sure did; yes, your Sun progresses and you should have that marked on a calendar with a big highlighter. So, in my moments of needing a moment I started turning on YouTube on my TV. The cable code did not save on my bedroom TV, so after a long day I had no desire to deal with, what seemed to be, the 20 digit password. Youtube became the easiest “go to”, when exhausted and folding laundry.  

I’m not sure what I started watching at first, but then I was reading an article one day and it said something about the top ten YouTube tarot card readers. I was like, what, people do that online. I am an elderly millennial (yes I loved the comedy special), so most of the time I feel like I am missing the boat on everything. I am around middle schoolers a lot, but I have little interest in their pop culture. Anyways, back to my story- I had to check out the tarot readers and what they were doing. Turns out most of them I did not find very interesting. I am glad other people do, most of the advice seemed pretty reasonable but not really my direction. This all changed the algorithm though. I started to get astrology, spirituality, channelers and of course Next Level Soul. 

Next Level Soul is where I really dove in more with spirituality. Also, Christina Lopes, her videos hit me hard, plus her meditations are still the best for me. Growing up with more of a spiritual mom than a religious one these concepts were definitely more relatable to me. Spirituality was always more personal to me, nothing I had to do in a group. For example I have no deep need to go sit in a church with other people. I love sitting in a church alone to feel the emincity of the energy, but I have never heard a call every Sunday morning to join the others. I guess this is why YouTube Spirituality worked/still works for me. I don’t watch as much Next Level Soul anymore, because I found my favorites and now follow them. I found other tarot readers, and astrologers that speak to me and what I am looking for. It seems like I have settled into my own spiritual rituals.

Going back to YouTube, last night I finished watching one of my “go to” and when it ended another thing just popped on. She started talking about spirituality practices in a different way. The way I relate to my inner voice. The way women put spirituality into the small moments between the other scheduled programming. The moments of folding laundry and we just take that extra breath while the chaos around us keeps going. When I am chopping the vegetables for dinner and I get into the rhythm of it, maybe with even some music on. Even the youtube videos I turn on to hear from others outside my world, to tap into more perspectives, have more insight, to take in what speaks to me in the moment while I am moving forward in my life. 

Maybe spirituality is just moving online just like everything else, including religion. Honestly for me, and probably many others, we don’t live in places that offer much around spirituality. Religions yes, but not spirituality. I always appreciated the spirituality inside every religion, it has always been the dogmatic practices that sometimes push me away, and the group study, I think I really have a thing against group thought, maybe that’s just what it is,sociology has always been an interest of mine, though I have never dug into it too deeply. Even sometimes, inside of spiritual groups sometimes the practices rub me the wrong way. I need my freedom in many ways, and how my relationship with the Universe, God, or whatever word you feel comfortable is yours. If meditation everyday is possible and is what you do, fantastic. I love a good meditation, but I have found it does not come everyday for a strict set time, it comes in the moments of sitting in the car waiting for my kids to get out of school. 

I actually live not far from a pretty famous spiritual place, Lily Dale. I do love a day trip to go spend wandering around. I have taken classes there, and the place feels amazing and so welcoming. Though even for me, that is something that happens once a year. The community is amazing, if you ever get a chance don’t miss out. Last year I went for a sound bath. It felt so good to do this in person, because most of the time I use YouTube and now Spotify for background frequencies as I work. Yes, Healing Vibrations is one that will come up. Yet, going to a live session can not be beat. Yet, it is still not on my weekly list of things to do, throwing on some YouTube is my personal ritual, that no one else is invited to.

I am going to my first retreat. I will have to report back. Even that though is not based around the practices of spirituality of yoga, breathing, sound baths or other spiritual rituals. The retreat I have chosen is Meredith Froemke’s Astrology retreat where we deep dive into astrology. It is going to be a weekend of learning about progressive charts and timing. I already have listened to some of her past retreat classes, her deep dive into Virgo is amazing. She really goes into the depths of Virgo, past the “Virgo’s are neat freaks” stereotype. Hint- not all Virgo’s are, some of them see that as a waste of their time because their focus in life is way too big just to make things perfectly clean and organized. Don’t get me wrong, I love a nice clean and organized place, but that’s not the only thing in life to pay attention to. So, if you have a Virgo around and they are not the stereo type of the clean freak Virgo, they are not broken, they could just be using that energy in a different part of their life. Back to the retreat – we could say it is a weekend of shadow work and meeting other people of like mind in the astrology world. I have never done anything like this, I am so excited.  Don’t tell anyone but I am also a little bit nervous.

 I have tried to even have a Yoga routine, but the routine never sticks. My schedule must not follow anyone else. I am home making dinner, getting kids to and fro, and in the morning- I am still sleeping. Sleep is important, and my job starts early so I am not getting up any earlier. I am even looking to start a weight lifting routine and trying to hire a personal trainer and the time I am asking for is really not helping me find someone. On an up note, I did find a yoga instructor that has taken me under her wing and stays after work for a quick half-hour session, as soon as summer hits I will be back out on my own. She really is a life saver in this game of trying to squeeze things into the schedule. So, this is why I am a YouTube Spiritualist, I can’t even pay someone to work within my schedule on a regular basis. Luckily YouTube is there for my spiritual needs. Whenever I click on the TV, it’s there, and so are those quick moments waiting in line at the grocery store. Luckily, my husband does most of that, which makes me smile.

The struggle is real. Mind, Body, and Soul. When I can overlap some of the triangles it really helps. At the end of the day, I am so happy I found this outlet in life. It has lead me to where I am going and I can not be more thrilled to take this ride. Currently I am not starting a YouTube channel, that could come in the future when I am not working a full time job. I love overlapping the building of a business at the same time I have a steady income from a job I know inside and out. There is a beauty in that. Also, knowing I can support other people with all the knowledge I have soaked in through the years and the knowledge I have studied. Even more knowing the experiences  that I have had as I have traveled, grown and become who I am today. Looking at my astrology as a mirror of who I am has only helped me develop more. I feel like the Astrology education has given me the AHAH moments that bring me a deeper understanding of who I am. They give me more confidence to be the person my soul is screaming to be. When I have the doubt, I can see, it’s right there in front of me. I just need to engage in the energy that is there and make it happen. It’s like I take the Neptunian dream and turn it into the Saturnian lesson and structure to make it real. Well, according to Neptune it’s still not real so why does it matter, because it is all an illusion anyways. So, just keep breathing, breathing, breathing….

I have this feeling I just need to talk about Pluto for a second. Even if he is never going to transition over my natal Pluto in this lifetime. He is still there and will create aspects to other planets my whole life. My sun sits nearly on Pluto in my natal chart, so it has been waiting for me and speaking to me from the day I was born. Luckily, I am generally a cheerful person otherwise that damn Pluto could take me down daily. Ok, sorta joking. I know, now, looking back that Pluto has transformed me multiple times. I look back at parts of my life and I don’t even see the same person. I see growth, and transformation. Always trying to become the next best form of who I am. Shedding a skin, like that Scorpianic part of me, and becoming the new me, hopefully each time getting closer to being the more authentic me. I warn you, unless you like to see creepy things, don’t go watch a video of a scorpion shedding its skin. Also, on another note don’t go look at pictures of black flies teeth, yikes, it makes me shiver even now. If you are into that stuff, go ahead, it’s really cool! My 90’s self comes out and says with glee.  

I am thankful to all those people that keep me going and have stuck by all my transformations, and continue to do so. I feel like I am barely hanging on at some points but I just keep going, digging deep with a smile on my face and knowing the sun will rise with or without me asking it to. It really is a beautiful thing.

That was a nice segway from my other thoughts about being a YouTube Spirutalist. I mean, I did find that part of YouTube during one of my biggest transformations in my life, so the connection is real. Also, true to form the connections is deep and slow just like the movement of Pluto. Plus, the story is not over, so I will be here ready for another round. Each time, I  feel a little bit more ready. Like the musician in the tarot deck, I have the tools in my bag for the next time around.  I will probably have to pick up more tools, because that is life and that is OK. 

I did not mean to do this as I wrote, but the musician card is associated with Mercury, the messenger which is of course an Air sign and has to do with communication, thoughts and ideas- YouTube. I love these connections.